N out.
N will be leaving the apartment this week. For good.
We broke up.
And though I'm sad, I'm also heaving a huge sigh of relief. I feel fine about it. I slept like a rock last night. Didn't fall asleep crying, didn't wake up crying when I remembered what had gone on. Which is starkly different from any other time we've had it out. I started packing up his things...I'm hoping he gets them out tonight. I'm just so ready to be done with this one. It has drained me completely.
I don't know how much I'll feel like posting this week. Who knows, I may need to rant every single day, but I may just be too tired. So I just thought a heads up was in order.
We broke up.
And though I'm sad, I'm also heaving a huge sigh of relief. I feel fine about it. I slept like a rock last night. Didn't fall asleep crying, didn't wake up crying when I remembered what had gone on. Which is starkly different from any other time we've had it out. I started packing up his things...I'm hoping he gets them out tonight. I'm just so ready to be done with this one. It has drained me completely.
I don't know how much I'll feel like posting this week. Who knows, I may need to rant every single day, but I may just be too tired. So I just thought a heads up was in order.
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11 Comments:
Thinking of you. Here if you need anything. ((hugs))
Wow. This seems so out of the blue. I mean, it's not like I know anything about your life other than what I read on this site, but you never really discussed any problems between you two. I don't know what to say, other than let this page be the shoulder you need (if, in fact, you do need one) - I've found my readers to be extremely supportive.
I had a feeling this one was coming. I'm just glad you were able to do it on your terms and when it felt right. Be prepared, it may hit you later. But know...
You are a wonderful person V. You deserve someone great. When you find that person, you'll know without a doubt.
Oh, I am sorry . . . even when we know these things are right, it still hurts. Best of luck and comfort to you during this time.
Moving on and opening up to something better should be your theme for 2 weeks from now. This week and next week you should just focus on being. Yeah, being, because it sounds like you may be emotionally drained. You may need to regroup and only focus on you. So, that means if you want to lay around all day do just that. Smile.
Try to get some knitting in- you know that's yoga for the mind.
I'm sorry, V. Hang in and be good to yourself.
Oh V, this is never fun, even when it's the right thing. Be gentle with yourself and hang tight. I'm sending good vibes your way.
Oh, I am so so so sorry, V. So sorry.
*hug*
Oh, V, I'm very sorry to hear this - such a hard thing. But it sounds like you know that it's the right thing, so I hope that is comforting. Take good care of YOU.
Thank you all so much for your kind words and thoughts. I'm such a bi-polar wreck the past day or so. One minute a-ok. The next minute...cryin' like a madwoman! Anyway...thank you, thank you, thank you.
It's been awhile since I've checked in with you. Sorry to hear about the change, its got to be tough...even if its for the better. Let me know if you need to borrow my "Letter to an Asshole." ;)
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